Irratated at TBI

You don't know what you have until you lost it. And worse is knowing you lost it without a rational feeling that things changed. All you have to go on is a sinking feeling and people correcting your mistakes or being nice. TBI, is basically shaken baby syndrome for adults (brain bounces around the inside of your skull - or something sticks inside). If it does not cause your brain to swell enough to kill you, it takes little bits away. If you were smart before, now you have the mentality of being smart, but cannot connect the dots.

Sleep has been at a premumum. I just hope not to wake in the morning.

Mix of this and that

Mix of some ambien, xanax, and the morphene patch seems to achieve the state which I feel good. Too bad I can't sleep with sleeping pills and pain killers to take the edge off. Generally I think it is my mood having moved from a give a shit to a don't give a flying fuck. Maybe it is a passing period and the milestones ahead in April will ground me. One way or another.

Ambien my friend

I have a friend called Ambien. It would be nice to be able to sleep on my own, but Ambien is always there in a little bottle, little white pill to help me sleep.